Actually Be a girl, I guess?

I’m trans, I’ve been on HRT for a few years now, started on a low dose, and have slowly been bumping it up.

Problem is, I know nothing about clothes makeup, etc. And the fact that I’m colorblind makes that stuff feel incredibly difficult.

A number of cis women in my life initially seemed really supportive when I initially came out, but in trying to reach out, and ask for guidance they’ve largely been really cold and unhelpful :/

Improve my organization system and have most things in a specific place. What about you?

I have two somewhat conflicting wants. To train for and ride a grand fondo (cycling event) in Drumheller in July, and to join a local dragon boat team for women who have had mastectomies. They conflict because July is peak dragon boat season.

Drop weight.

Former big girl who got fit and maintained it for 10ish years, only to blow up again during the pandemic. I still have the weight on.

I’ve been practicing Intermittent fasting since about mid November, and I’m really kicking it in to gear now. I’ve been wanting to get back to a healthy weight for over five years, it’s nice I seem to have gotten the discipline for it in my heart now, and I have a buddy also doing the same, so it’s like an accountability thing. Very greatful for them. Fucking ready.

Also, I’ve been a sahm for 6 ish years now. I’ve started to look for work just two days ago. I am hoping for a job close by so I can start saving for a car, and maybe get back a career. Hoping. I feel terrified to go back to work after so long, but I know the fear will pass.