I feel this is a safe place to say, for years now I have cared for (the Beings Rights in me says, cannot own nature, thus Living Beings) a dog in Hospice status, example literally, walking skeleton)…
…& as in my profile, I am about to put the dog down, been thinking, thus crying about this for weeks, had the standard for the decision decided for months & for weeks known it was going to happen, crying right now.
I am also a diehard not Religious person-Everyone has the most powerful thing we know, just different degrees of us understanding it & working through it’s limitations, as all of them have Challenges, to us. What are they? They are all of our brains/minds, together they are even more powerful, then as individuals. So when I put her life to an end, we will never know each other again!
I have told everyone it has to be an emotional free/logical decision, to reach the right as possible time; but doing so hardest thing in the world! I HATE HAVING TO CHOOSE DEATH FOR OTHERS WHO NEED IT, BUT CANNOT THEMSELVES! Done it for way too many animals I care for, because live in Unincorporated, Ag. & Politically Right dominated area. Thankfully, I choose to not over being too emotional, in such decisions & situations, comfort zone. Have had relatives (even in the same household) react emotionally & try to either race the dog to her death, way too soon or prevent me from creating the standards with The Vet., though last week, the dog’s suffering is in everyone’s face.
But I wish, I could switch back & forth to & from my Mr. Spock a lot less emotional brain, back to my level head, but more emotional. Both are needed for healing.
If it helps, one of the coolest parts of that show (TOS) is the dynamic between that triad of rational Spock (superego?), emotional Bones (id?), and Captain Kirk (ego?) whose job it was to integrate them together.
You have the privilege of listening to both voices. You are living out the responsibility of having to deal with both. Though it’s probably okay to take a mental health break? 💔
Days after having her put down, I am going to watch one of favorite SciFi Political Movies Series- Avatar. Then later this week’s Sat., I am going to clean-up a beach, for the very 1st time ever.
“Touching grass” (well, a beach in this case) is undeniably one of the best things you can do. Exposure to nature, and helping others, I can’t think of anything better:-).
Hey, your dog had an awesome parent, you know that? 🐶
It occurred to me, how interesting your “Touching grass” comment was,…
…I used to ride my bicycle to our community’s grass areas in-front of isolated & quiet properties, so I could lay in the grass, experience nature’s bugs (a lot of Bumble Bees; was making my own sunscreen then, that attracted pollinators) & able to concentrate on the work on my ideas for inventions, sports computer gaming & book.
Later on, I found a community of immigrant workers, of the local Ag. businesses, at the local & historical grocery store. Until after they price gauged me, on ice cubes, when my electricity would not stay on, for weeks of I spending money on their cheaper & larger amount of ice cubes.
Touching grass can be very soothing.
I do love nature, just not public beaches, at least in South Florida’s needles-pollution beaches. I prefer The USA’s Northwest, Washington, Oregon & Alaska, & other countries’ regions (like Scandinavia <SP?>) with same mountains & trees & nature, just hate their cold. So it is more about distraction into my doing right/activist mind.
It is an excellent distraction, as far as distractions go. It won’t be perfect, of course, but it will accomplish something all the same. (“Don’t let perfect be the enemy of good”:-)
True, I will need a distraction, Not to be sexist or anything like that, but to be real, the possibility for this living in a isolating area, single, fit & 50ish man, doing something people think is good thing to do, seeing sexy, bikini clad, young & fit women is a great distraction & possibilities.
Definitely. And they will likewise presumably enjoy being looked at, respectfully and not creepily of course:-).
But maybe also carve out some time specifically to be alone with your thoughts, so as to help yourself heal? Or if it’s too soon, that’s understandable - just be kind to yourself however you can manage.