I say I don’t know because it’s been at least 10 years since I last even tried, and I’ve grown and done a lot of self discovery in the mean time. But I was absolutely hopeless at relationships.
Every ‘relationship’ I’ve had was initiated by the other person. And in most of them I felt pretty clueless and unsure of what to do or how to go about doing it, like I missed the class on how to. We would usually end up as better friends after an awkward couple of weeks or months.
The one or two where I did actually get something like ‘romantic’ feelings and try to play the role, I was pretty much just an awful mix of too intense and emo.
It sounds like I’m talking about a lot of people but honestly it’s hard for me to define a “romantic partner”. It’s always been more like friends that flirted and danced for a while. Or a fling at most. And if it sounds like I was getting a lot of action or something, most of it was doomed before it ever got that far.
And I know this is getting long now but just want to say, if I do start dabbling in being more than friends again, I think I’d like to practise relationship anarchy. For the lack of traditional expectations or rules to follow seeing as I don’t know them anyway.
I don’t think I would be polyamorous though. I’m pretty sure I’m actually somewhere in the realm of both aromantic and ace but (typical for me) I still haven’t got around to actually doing research on the meanings and the variations like demi or grey.
I don’t really know. Bad.
I say I don’t know because it’s been at least 10 years since I last even tried, and I’ve grown and done a lot of self discovery in the mean time. But I was absolutely hopeless at relationships.
Every ‘relationship’ I’ve had was initiated by the other person. And in most of them I felt pretty clueless and unsure of what to do or how to go about doing it, like I missed the class on how to. We would usually end up as better friends after an awkward couple of weeks or months.
The one or two where I did actually get something like ‘romantic’ feelings and try to play the role, I was pretty much just an awful mix of too intense and emo.
It sounds like I’m talking about a lot of people but honestly it’s hard for me to define a “romantic partner”. It’s always been more like friends that flirted and danced for a while. Or a fling at most. And if it sounds like I was getting a lot of action or something, most of it was doomed before it ever got that far.
And I know this is getting long now but just want to say, if I do start dabbling in being more than friends again, I think I’d like to practise relationship anarchy. For the lack of traditional expectations or rules to follow seeing as I don’t know them anyway.
I don’t think I would be polyamorous though. I’m pretty sure I’m actually somewhere in the realm of both aromantic and ace but (typical for me) I still haven’t got around to actually doing research on the meanings and the variations like demi or grey.
TL;DR - Bad.