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      9 hours ago

      Sheer will completely of my own volition, and some revelations that were sort of always there, but I finally grasped what was going on. Basically it boils down to for the last 20 years, I’ve been using romantic partners as a constant crutch to satisfy my social needs. My most recent breakup a couple months back had me really reflect on the past, and I realized that right now I need real true social connections, and don’t really need any romantic physical connection. I was in a situation I’d never really found myself in before (alone, basically, not looking to date), and I just started throwing myself at situations, meeting people, being super open and vulnerable, etc…

      We ended up rescheduling the zoo, but we’re still going eventually… I was super ready and down to go, but I guess everyone else was a little too eager when discussing it originally and didn’t think about several things people already had on their calendars lol.