Sheer will completely of my own volition, and some revelations that were sort of always there, but I finally grasped what was going on. Basically it boils down to for the last 20 years, I’ve been using romantic partners as a constant crutch to satisfy my social needs. My most recent breakup a couple months back had me really reflect on the past, and I realized that right now I need real true social connections, and don’t really need any romantic physical connection. I was in a situation I’d never really found myself in before (alone, basically, not looking to date), and I just started throwing myself at situations, meeting people, being super open and vulnerable, etc…
We ended up rescheduling the zoo, but we’re still going eventually… I was super ready and down to go, but I guess everyone else was a little too eager when discussing it originally and didn’t think about several things people already had on their calendars lol.
Sheer will completely of my own volition, and some revelations that were sort of always there, but I finally grasped what was going on. Basically it boils down to for the last 20 years, I’ve been using romantic partners as a constant crutch to satisfy my social needs. My most recent breakup a couple months back had me really reflect on the past, and I realized that right now I need real true social connections, and don’t really need any romantic physical connection. I was in a situation I’d never really found myself in before (alone, basically, not looking to date), and I just started throwing myself at situations, meeting people, being super open and vulnerable, etc…
We ended up rescheduling the zoo, but we’re still going eventually… I was super ready and down to go, but I guess everyone else was a little too eager when discussing it originally and didn’t think about several things people already had on their calendars lol.