I looked into the wiki page, and it does , specifically the part of environment factors, thanks for helping me man, appreciated it, I’m gonna do more research on it

Have you thought about volunteering at a library or something like that?

Nope I haven’t , I doubt if there’s even one in my country, again I don’t go outside much so idk any library, but it will be cool if I can.

I know you need people though - kind people in your life who you can talk to (not online).

Yes. I wish my childhood friends stayed with me, kept in contact in some way
I found it difficult to make friends online, honestly I had the worst experience, an online friend of mine literally shared a very private and sensitive information about me and made it public. And after this , I realised that some people online doesn’t care about you, even if both of you and him/her consider each other friends, they will either just be rude, or block you . Maybe even go as far as shamelessly says he hates you in public, I saw this and to this day I keep thinking of the guy who said it, so that’s why I don’t take online friendships seriously anymore. Anyways ima go, I appreciate anyone who commented in this post. Finally i can relief the stuff have been in my chest for days

Appreciated the help, I’ve seen the term “dissociation “ earlier today, and I also know about maladaptive daydream disorder as I said 2 months ago. a friend of mine sent a picture about the key difference between these 2, and I can assure you I relate to both or experienced it. Note that despite my family threatening me to take me to a doctor to see if “I am insane” , they actually won’t pay a penny for it, or for a therapist. They just rudely and negatively threatens me for a purpose of probably to make me afraid or just to make me mad cuz they know I get angry very fast, otherwise they will never do anything about me or my mental health, forgot to add, I don’t have access to professionals or doctors unfortunately So I can’t get diagnosed or even checked up

I am a teenager yes, and I don’t have friends to spend time with, I grew up lonely since young age, only had temporary friends who don’t talk to me anymore, I’m usually an introvert and I always be quite whenever I’m with my relatives or strangers, i get heated up whenever someone approaches me cuz I don’t know how to reply, mostly because my siblings are a snitch. And shame me in front of my parents. Making me look like a criminal for simply not “being a human” in front of people. according to them… . And this makes me think I’m mentally fracturing. Insane even,