A Siamese cat. Every one I have ever met has had this wonderful personality, and I used to read this series of books by this English author about life with her Siamese cats. Sadly I’m allergic to cats.

Parental love and approval. I’ve learned to live without it, but there’s a hole there certainly.

To be a pretty girl

Growing up now, I’ve learned I was always a girl. I’m working on the pretty part.

I would have killed for an RC helicopter as a kid. I still kind of want one, but I know I’d crash it the first 15 seconds now.

Travel. I grew up in a working class family in a rich area and I was always jealous of the other kids spending time over the holidays skiing, going to Egypt, Italy, all sorts.

I’ve ticked off a few countries now but almost all around Europe. I want to see more of the world, just not affordable at this stage in my life.

A friend had a marble clock that I thought was the coolest thing. I’ve seen them around lately and still think they’re cool, but it’s impractical, noisy and takes up a lot of space.

I did end up buying a Turing Tumble which did scratch that itch.

I wished I was more creatively inclined. Building stuff, playing music, drawing, the works. I’ve bounced off it a couple times since then but I’m at a job where I work with my hands now so I’m getting money and practice 😗

I also wished I was a girl but that turned out to be more possible then I knew at the time

An AK-47. The biggest reason that I haven’t gotten one is that it’'s just not very practical. Parts aren’t interchangeable without a lot of hand fitting, ammunition has gotten ridiculously expensive due to sanctions against Russia, range isn’t great (those 7.62 bullets are heavy and slow; hitting anything past 200y is a real challenge), etc., etc. They’ve also gotten fairly expensive, while prices for more modern rifles have dropped sharply.

I might still get one eventually. I’d like to have one, just to shoot for fun, but there are so many other higher priorities.

My own robot. But hey, that day may be coming!

Happiness and peace of mind.

My dog back >:(

HeMan castle set.

Less mental illnessess and back problems.

Freedom, my own place, stability.

I had a couple of idols in my childhood I wanted to meet (technically three, but I kind of accepted the third would be out of the question). I met one, and am proud to say we’re great friends who regularly communicate, but the other one remained unmet, and a few years ago, he sadly committed suicide. RIP Jason David Frank.