I don’t think it’s too much for this community. I think you are being too hard on yourself. You do something until you are bored with it and you consider that a character flaw? Brother, that’s just life. You may not be the best at something, but if you enjoy doing it, then who cares? I make music, and it’s not topping the charts. However, I do it because my inspiration wasn’t to make music for everyone, it was to make it for someone.

Number 3 is called a feedback loop. It’s like drinking. It’s the solution to the problem, but it causes the problem. Forgive yourself and move forward. Change is a direction, not a destination. Perfect is the enemy of good, and maybe good enough is going for a walk before watching something. Small steps. Breath.

You are no different than the happy people you see. You’ll find what works. Everything, even the ground you stand on, is temporary.