I feel this is a safe place to say, for years now I have cared for (the Beings Rights in me says, cannot own nature, thus Living Beings) a dog in Hospice status, example literally, walking skeleton)…
…& as in my profile, I am about to put the dog down, been thinking, thus crying about this for weeks, had the standard for the decision decided for months & for weeks known it was going to happen, crying right now.
I am also a diehard not Religious person-Everyone has the most powerful thing we know, just different degrees of us understanding it & working through it’s limitations, as all of them have Challenges, to us. What are they? They are all of our brains/minds, together they are even more powerful, then as individuals. So when I put her life to an end, we will never know each other again!
I have told everyone it has to be an emotional free/logical decision, to reach the right as possible time; but doing so hardest thing in the world! I HATE HAVING TO CHOOSE DEATH FOR OTHERS WHO NEED IT, BUT CANNOT THEMSELVES! Done it for way too many animals I care for, because live in Unincorporated, Ag. & Politically Right dominated area. Thankfully, I choose to not over being too emotional, in such decisions & situations, comfort zone. Have had relatives (even in the same household) react emotionally & try to either race the dog to her death, way too soon or prevent me from creating the standards with The Vet., though last week, the dog’s suffering is in everyone’s face.
But I wish, I could switch back & forth to & from my Mr. Spock a lot less emotional brain, back to my level head, but more emotional. Both are needed for healing.
You should be proud of your ability of regulate your emotions such that you can make the decisions based on logic and reason. But also take the time to process your emotions. It would be illogical to deny them. Even Vulcans need time and effort to do that!
And these emotions exist for a reason. I’m certain this dog must have had a wonderful last leg of it’s life, since they had someone that cared for them so much, that it hurts you to finally have to make the decision to put the dog down.
Live long and prosper, so that many more may experience your love.
Thank you, it is unavoidable, Being Emotional. While I hate I-others making decisions under emotional states of mind, anger-sadness, I also know the way our minds work through extreme sad & Etc. emotions future events, that are going to have to happen, thus predictable, is to express as much as possible how one feels (emotions) about the future events, before they happen.