Meeting about the new office building. Construction starting two years from now. What is my opinion on an open office? Can’t say i give a fuck what’s happening in two years, can’t envision that being relevant to me at all.
You have nothing to lose, then. Since you still have some sort of drive or sense of purpose to go into your job, might as well tell people what made you hate your job and office and helped push you to a dark place. Not that you’d tell them the heavy stuff, but that open office plans make phone calls hard or raising prices in the vending machines while freezing wages makes you not care if the work is done right. Whatever it is. Might as well make them uncomfortable too, right?
Most people are afraid to speak up. They’re sycophants to survive. You could reach a new level of Zen. Let that which truly does not matter, slide.
Kind of like Office Space. Or Fight Club. Depending on your attitude.
You may even pull out if it by changing your environment enough to care about life again. Cause shit man, it can’t get much worse if you’re suicidal.
Personally, I walked out of a job with nothing in the works because I kept having nervous breakdowns and didn’t want to deal with everything anymore. And you know what? I got some much needed perspective in that downtime. I feel much happier now.
Killing yourself means everything else wins. Make life deal with YOU. We all die “naturally” soon enough anyway. My best friend died two weeks ago way too young while shitty people live till they’re 80. I don’t know when I will die. But I won’t stay quiet at my job it’s in my life just to prevent making waves. Someone has to make them. Maybe it works out, maybe it doesn’t. But damn if it’s not healthier to let it out.
EDIT I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through right now.
I missed that on my first read of your comment. I re-read my reply and decided to remove it. Reading it with that perspective made me realise that I have become jaded and insincere.
I didn’t read your original comment so it doesn’t matter. I’m also jaded. I debated hitting “submit” or not because when I’m at my lowest idk that any “cheer up! You matter!” Empty BS helps at all. But I figure fuck it. Nothing makes you want to live more than going to a funeral that wasn’t supposed to happen. And walking out of a shitty job can work surprisingly well. Or at least knowing you can. Maybe not in this economy, but it’s better than listening to your boss plan out the next few years of your life and it sounds like torture.
Either way, being depressed sucks and I’m just thinking that I feel much better now just telling my current job that I’m not impressed when I think they’re fucking up. Even if they don’t fix it. You sound miserable there so any changes YOU make in your life are bound to be better.
Start a union to renew your passion for workplace issues?
I’m a union member. I dont think i have the fight or the mental clarity or emotional stability to take a more active role, but i do what i can.
Not a great excuse, i realise as I’m typing this. I will be modulated and supported by others, that’s the whole idea i guess. I’ll look into it next year.
Sorry fam, I feel like that came off as insensitive
. I may not know you, or really anything about you, but I do genuinely want you to stick around. I believe you have the capacity to make the world a better place for yourself and hopefully for others too.Not at all mate, solid proactive advice can be grounding and good. Appreciate the kind words. You are making the world a better place for others.