You’re not entirely wrong in that philosophy. At best we can hope for allies some of the time, but typically that arrangement will last only when mutually beneficial. We’re not owed anything, and that includes loyalty, allegiance, love etc.
I think the majority of people we experience in a lifetime will be parasitic, and will take infinitely more than they have the capacity to give. Even the “good ones”.
I think it’s fine to feel what you’re feeling, you have your eyes wide open and are seeing relationships for what they are, without idealism. How to reconcile that understanding with a happy, fulfilling life is another thing entirely.
Yeah I thought I had found one of the “good ones”. They were my best friend for years until they totally and completely rejected and abandoned me during the toughest time in my life. Because I was inconvenient for them. I’ve been an internet dweller all my life due to social anxiety. And I know that’s the only place now that I can really find safety and comfort, not the “real world”.
We are still friends now but it shattered the illusion of what I thought existed. And it is difficult at times to like them now. I feel even crazier flipping from liking them to hating them. Never felt that before with anyone.
They aren’t a friend I can just “leave” because we work together.
You’re not entirely wrong in that philosophy. At best we can hope for allies some of the time, but typically that arrangement will last only when mutually beneficial. We’re not owed anything, and that includes loyalty, allegiance, love etc.
I think the majority of people we experience in a lifetime will be parasitic, and will take infinitely more than they have the capacity to give. Even the “good ones”.
I think it’s fine to feel what you’re feeling, you have your eyes wide open and are seeing relationships for what they are, without idealism. How to reconcile that understanding with a happy, fulfilling life is another thing entirely.
Yeah I thought I had found one of the “good ones”. They were my best friend for years until they totally and completely rejected and abandoned me during the toughest time in my life. Because I was inconvenient for them. I’ve been an internet dweller all my life due to social anxiety. And I know that’s the only place now that I can really find safety and comfort, not the “real world”.
We are still friends now but it shattered the illusion of what I thought existed. And it is difficult at times to like them now. I feel even crazier flipping from liking them to hating them. Never felt that before with anyone.
They aren’t a friend I can just “leave” because we work together.