Drunk is the only time I truly enjoy life. Life is just dredging on day after day on a work, commute, sleep pattern that makes me hope for a young death
When I drink I feel like life is supposed to feel like. I feel like little things can make me happy and I truly enjoy those little things. If it kills me, at least I died enjoying SOMETHING. I know I need to stop, but it so hard when everything else is so awful.
Why I say this: In 3 weeks it will be 10 years since my last drink, after 23 years of continual self-abuse. I fell through every crack, yet I “”“made”" it (yes triple quotes lol) and I’ve been through just about every system there is. I’m really good at listening, validating, and giving my experiences to others
I intentionally turned myself off from being a game developer and tech madman, and I now work in peer support, withdrawal management, recovery/housing mentorship etc. Because I want to be the support that was never there for me when I need it
So I’m here for you if you need me my friend. Please don’t assume that I’ll tell you what’s right for you or anything along those lines :) You’ll be heard
Edit I figured out that there’s direct messaging so feel free to message me privately if you’d like
Drunk is the only time I truly enjoy life. Life is just dredging on day after day on a work, commute, sleep pattern that makes me hope for a young death
When I drink I feel like life is supposed to feel like. I feel like little things can make me happy and I truly enjoy those little things. If it kills me, at least I died enjoying SOMETHING. I know I need to stop, but it so hard when everything else is so awful.
That being said, labels would make sense.
You need to talk to a mental health professional.
No shit!?!
If you would like I’d like to offer support
Why I say this: In 3 weeks it will be 10 years since my last drink, after 23 years of continual self-abuse. I fell through every crack, yet I “”“made”" it (yes triple quotes lol) and I’ve been through just about every system there is. I’m really good at listening, validating, and giving my experiences to others
I intentionally turned myself off from being a game developer and tech madman, and I now work in peer support, withdrawal management, recovery/housing mentorship etc. Because I want to be the support that was never there for me when I need it
So I’m here for you if you need me my friend. Please don’t assume that I’ll tell you what’s right for you or anything along those lines :) You’ll be heard
Edit I figured out that there’s direct messaging so feel free to message me privately if you’d like