I didn’t have the language for it, but I knew something was wrong with me and the way I felt in my body and in society as soon as I was six or seven years old. Had I been given the right language to express it back then, I would have known right away, but I guess it wouldn’t have been better because, well, there’s nothing I would have been able to do about it. I didn’t know I was a girl. I just knew I desperately wanted to be one. But I could never say that to anyone.
Still, though, I consider myself a trans kid nonetheless, just because I came out later, in my adult life, doesn’t mean that I wasn’t. I pretty much knew what I was, there was just no tolerance nor space for me to be it. And, uh, honestly? I deserved better. Much better. Instead, I’ll be spending the rest of my life dealing with the consequences of all of this…
I came up with the opposite of a tomboy, and told my parents “I’m a tomgirl 😃” in 3rd grade. From that point on my homophobic mom hid anything queer related at all times.
You really did. Your entire childhood you were dressed, expected to behave and treated as someone you weren’t. That’s really destructive, and you did great accepting your true self despite all the programming. You are who you are and who you are is great
I didn’t have the language for it, but I knew something was wrong with me and the way I felt in my body and in society as soon as I was six or seven years old. Had I been given the right language to express it back then, I would have known right away, but I guess it wouldn’t have been better because, well, there’s nothing I would have been able to do about it. I didn’t know I was a girl. I just knew I desperately wanted to be one. But I could never say that to anyone.
Still, though, I consider myself a trans kid nonetheless, just because I came out later, in my adult life, doesn’t mean that I wasn’t. I pretty much knew what I was, there was just no tolerance nor space for me to be it. And, uh, honestly? I deserved better. Much better. Instead, I’ll be spending the rest of my life dealing with the consequences of all of this…
I came up with the opposite of a tomboy, and told my parents “I’m a tomgirl 😃” in 3rd grade. From that point on my homophobic mom hid anything queer related at all times.
jokes on her I got tits now
You really did. Your entire childhood you were dressed, expected to behave and treated as someone you weren’t. That’s really destructive, and you did great accepting your true self despite all the programming. You are who you are and who you are is great