I feel like an oddball saying it this way, but currently highly emotional? I don’t really know if this is what’s always been beneath the surface, or if it’s the fact that I finally feel “allowed” to actually experience my emotions and the years of repression have just left them feeling more ready to come out and feel more intense.
Normally not very, thankfully. It’s moreso the suddenness, like movies I’ve seen so many times and now there’s a scene that’ll bring the tears, or I’ll catch myself thinking on something and I feel more aware of my emotions.
Sometimes it almost feels like trying to catch up on 30 years of just locking it all away.
Kinda scared of what hormones are going to bring, once I can finally start them. Mascara is going to be the enemy for a bit.
I feel like an oddball saying it this way, but currently highly emotional? I don’t really know if this is what’s always been beneath the surface, or if it’s the fact that I finally feel “allowed” to actually experience my emotions and the years of repression have just left them feeling more ready to come out and feel more intense.
That’s a big question… it could even be both. How hard is it to regulated them?
Normally not very, thankfully. It’s moreso the suddenness, like movies I’ve seen so many times and now there’s a scene that’ll bring the tears, or I’ll catch myself thinking on something and I feel more aware of my emotions.
Sometimes it almost feels like trying to catch up on 30 years of just locking it all away.
Kinda scared of what hormones are going to bring, once I can finally start them. Mascara is going to be the enemy for a bit.
I reckon you’re right, you’ve locked it away for so long it’s now getting out however it can. Well done for getting to this point