// TW: undiagnosed cognitive distortion
I was reflecting on myself, these vague thoughts, such as “I have no friends” and “No one likes me,” actually harm me. They alter my behavior toward myself and others, affecting my ability to form genuine connections, which also involve community and other people. Not just me alone. Other people also want to be heard and to express their individuality, not just me. If I pass away one day, it’s not me who buries myself, but the community.
I am already engaged in chat-based talk therapy with a long-distance clinical psychologist, but I’m not sure why I didn’t chat with her a lot. It’s just that I didn’t know what to talk about. The vents I mentioned, like “no one likes me,” are too general, and I have already told her about that. She gently challenged my mind to see if it’s true; if it is, then I came here for that.