Yeah. I was abused by my nuclear family my entire life with the exception of the times I got away for a few years (college, army)-- but they always drew me back in again. My mentors all died; I suppose they’d had enough of life and gave up the fight. My nice brother and nice sister both died (Aids/brain tumor respectively) from capitalism. It’s just… you know, frustrating to live under capitalism knowing exactly what is going on. Truly harsh. best of luck to you as well.