

USian ex-liberal here. It would be hard to go back and trace all the steps, I don’t have the best memory for that kind of thing to begin with and stress has probably done a number on me as well.
But in broad strokes, I know Bernie Sanders’ campaign in 2016 was a catalyst (though I’m pretty sure I was already discontented with capitalism to an extent, which was why I readily agreed with him). His positions alone, in retrospect, were pretty mild, but he wasn’t the only one involved in it. There were others who seized on the energy involved to educate beyond him and that was more what made a difference. For some time, I lingered in a state of “baby leftist” who probably sounded like one of those “leftists” who wants healthcare but also is scared of AES states and still believes in the empire. Eventually, best way I can think to put it without having all of the transformative details to rattle off, is quantitative transformed into qualitative. And when I read State and Revolution, I think I was already ready to hear it, you know? It wasn’t like a shock, like it might have been if I’d read it when knee deep in Red Scare views.
It was eye-opening to read. I don’t think it immediately made me supportive of AES states, partly because of the stigma surrounding doing that, but eventually I came to reason that if I was going to believe in ML as a solution to anything, it only made sense to be supportive of projects that were trying to do it. Back then, I knew almost nothing about the projects in the particulars and so I would default to more of an “I don’t know” mindset; rather than saying they’re bad or saying they’re amazing, I’d say I don’t know enough about them and I’m not going to pretend that I do. After being here a while, discussing, reading, reflecting, and discussing more (sometimes rather vigorously), it has become a little bit easier to defend AES states in the particulars and confidently say what they are for and what they are doing. There is still a lot that I just don’t know about the weeds of it, but now I can confidently say a thing like, “The US lets a guy like Jeff Bezos reign, whereas China would depose him of power” (which is putting is nicely, I don’t think it’s out of the question they might execute someone like him). Being able to say this to a person who is dissatisfied with the world as run by billionaires is nice to be able to do. I’m not sure how much it moves the needle on sympathy for AES states, but maybe it gets a foot in the door. It sure beats being like, “Well AES states might have done horrible things, I’m not really sure” or the so-called ‘leftist’ thing of being like “no, no, you see I’m proposing the good communism that has only ever existed in the abstract, not the bad version that they tried and had to test against actual reality, I’m a ‘safe’ commie who will never challenge your power with anything real.”
Long live the actual people’s democracies of the world.





May help to see if you can channel the energy into clerical organizing work in an org; the kind of work where you don’t have to talk to people a lot, especially liberals. Not everybody has to be a big talker, especially in the capacity of tolerating people who are way different politically.