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Cake day: April 22nd, 2023

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  • Oh my goodness gracious, thank you so very much. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. I wish my brain was letting me express myself better and I’m sorry that it is not, but, seriously: thank you. This is a big weight off of my overburdened, achey shoulders.

    I also appreciate you mentioning that I seem kind in my comment history… It means a lot when it’s noticed (even though I sure don’t do it for that!) because it feels like such a tiny drop in the ocean of evil and meanness that exists in the world and on the Internet. But I know how miserable and struggling I am, and I know others are, too, so I try to spread some bits of niceness when my broken brain and body let me, ya know? It probably doesn’t mean much to them, but you never know. I dunno, hopefully you get what I’m trying to say - it’s hard to think and communicate right now. (I also love your spite-niceness! Lol!! You’re my kind of person.)

    I hope so, so much good karma comes your way and that your career situation works out for the better. I’m sorry you’re having to deal with our government’s garbageness, too. (I myself just got news right after posting of more of my healthcare being taken away, effective immediately, because of him and his cronies’ nonsense and hate, so I very much feel you there!!) You deserve lots of good karma and the wonderfulness you’ve put out in the world coming back your way tenfold, and I hope it does.

    Sincerely: thank you, thank you, thank you. I genuinely appreciate you. <3 🫂




  • Thank you so much. Logically, I know you’re right, and would say the same things to someone else in my situation asking for help, but my brain isn’t very logical when it comes to how I treat and think of myself (bleh! I’m working on it.) Your comment helps. I appreciate you and I appreciate your comment a lot. Thank you.

    I hope your situation improves and wish you the best of luck, as well! <3






  • Zoop@beehaw.orgtoChat@beehaw.orghow's your week going, Beehaw
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    1 month ago

    Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. <3 I’m sorry this response is so late; I haven’t really been on here, I’ve just been surviving, and additional big scary life stuff has been happening. It’s too much.

    I’m still in the same spot I was when I wrote the comment, unfortunately (worse, actually.) I hate taking/asking for money/help from people so much, but I logically know I need to suck it up and not be ashamed of needing help, but it’s so hard, ya know? Bleh. I have the usual apps like CashApp ([redacted]), PayPal ([redacted]), Venmo ([redacted]). I don’t know if anyone will see this, though, since it’s an old post. If you do, I’d like your opinion: should I make a post…? I don’t know if that would be weird or if it’s allowed here, or where I’d post it if so? I’m sorry if those are stupid questions or if I make little sense. It’s so tough to think/communicate and I’m so ashamed. Please let me know if I can try to clarify anything.

    And thank you again for being so kind to me and for caring about me even though I’m a stranger. I appreciate it so much.



  • Zoop@beehaw.orgtoChat@beehaw.orghow's your week going, Beehaw
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    2 months ago

    I am so sorry, but I need to vent, and the only person I manage to talk to has disappeared with no notice (probably just overwhelmed with life stuff but I hope they’re okay. I’m worried.)

    I am in overwhelming pain. My chronic intractable pain has been so much worse lately. Probably at least partially due to stress because everything is fucked. I can’t afford my next pain medicine refill, and I’m nearly out, and the friend that disappeared usually helps me cover it. I’m disabled and can’t work and have literally no money. So I’m just fucked. Even WITH the meds, I’ve been struggling to handle the pain and it’s scary. I genuinely don’t know how I’m going to survive without any kind of pain control. Not to mention the withdrawal. I am scared. I am scared I am going to get overstimulated and overwhelmed from the pain that I go all stereotypical autistic meltdown and shutdown and bash my fists into my head and hurt myself, and I feel ashamed and weak that I can’t just deal with it like a normal person. I don’t know what to do. I’m so stressed and in pain and anxious I’m dealing with dissociation, depersonalization, derealization way more often than usual. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how I’m going to survive. I don’t know. I’m fucking scared, I can’t take this pain. I’m sorry for whining and being weak especially when so many have it so much worse than me. I don’t even know if this makes sense. I can’t think 'cause I’m in too much fucking pain!!! I am scared and I am so fucked AAAAAAAAAAAA.







  • Zoop@beehaw.orgtoChat@beehaw.orgRevisiting Beehaw merchandise
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    3 months ago

    I think it would be really cool to see some solid Beehaw merch out there! I loved the previous cute little cowboy bee with the cowboy hat, but I don’t know if that’s an option. I love a cutsie lil round bumbly bee with a cowboy hat!!! The shirt in your post is also very cute! Bee cool! 🐝💕

    But… To be clear, there’s no way in hell I’d ever be able to afford any merch, since my health issues and disabilities keep me from being able to work and earn money, so don’t give my opinions much attention 😆