my entire family got sick so i have been in the unenviable position of suddenly being load-bearing, and i’d greatly appreciate if that was not the case

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    Terrible, horrific, the society all around me is racing as fast as it can into unreality at the hands of Kremlin information warfare. So many have lost their hearts and minds to 5,000 patterns of anti-truth anti-real anti-goodness. Sickening every hour of every day how people are behaving in my community.

    Константин Рыков
    November 14, 2016

    Часть вторая.

    В чем заключалась наша идея с Дональдом Трампом? За четыре года и два дня… необходимо было пробраться ко всем в мозг и захватить все возможные средства массового восприятия действительности. Обеспечить победу Дональда на выборах президента США. После чего создать политический союз между Соединенными Штатами, Францией, Россией (и ещё рядом других государств) и установить новый мировой порядок.

    Четыре года и два дня - это с одной стороны очень большой срок, а с другой очень маленький. Наша идея была безумна, но реализуема. Для того, чтобы в этом во всем разобраться для начала нужно было “оцифровать” все возможные виды современного человека. Дональд решил пригласить для этой задачи - специальный научный отдел “Кембриджского университета”.

    Британские учёные из Cambridge Analytica предложили сделать из 5 тысяч существующих человеческих психотипов - “идеальный образ” возможного сторонника Трампа. Затем… положить этот образ обратно на всё психотипы и таким образом подобрать универсальный ключик к любому и каждому.

    Разработка в итоге обошлась Дональду Фредовичу в 5 миллионов долларов. Но! Он получил в свои руки - секретное супер-оружие. Кто занимался таргетированной рекламой… поймёт, что это значит. Помните, сколько всего денег потратили фонды Клинтон и “их сторонники” на кампанию по всему миру? В 5 раз больше, чем Трамп.

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    I am trying desperately to help my 13 year old understand the importance of how to recognize their worth, to only change for self betterment ( not for others), and that being in a relationship is not required, especially if they don’t actually want to be in one.

    Parenting is quite difficult, y’all.

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    I have deleted every single social media account I had with the sole exception of Reddit (and Beehaw of course) in the past few years as part of my deciding-to-be-better clean-up act.

    Even after blocking and removing a metric fuck ton of toxic subs I always still feel worse than when I start casually browsing it. Something about confidently incorrect people, trolls, assholes, bots and AI slop get under my skin no matter how much I try to ignore them.

    So I’m going to reduce my Reddit activity even further.

    The world is probably always on fire right now and life is always hard. But I empathize with all of you that haven’t had things go your way this week, and I celebrate all your little small wins and victories.

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      Even after blocking and removing a metric fuck ton of toxic subs I always still feel worse than when I start casually browsing it. Something about confidently incorrect people, trolls, assholes, bots and AI slop get under my skin no matter how much I try to ignore them.

      All social media, including Reddit and Bluesky, is racing towards mass dehumanization and promoting anti-humanism as fast as possible. It’s out of control in 2025.

      “Technopoly is a state of culture. It is also a state of mind. It consists in the deification of technology, which means that the culture seeks its authorization in technology, finds its satisfactions in technology, and takes its orders from technology.” ― Neil Postman, Technopoly: The Surrender of Culture to Technology, 1992

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    My week was pretty good, thank you for asking! On Monday, I went to group therapy for the first time. I liked it, but let’s see how things progress. Watched the new Bridget Jones film in the evening. Wednesday, I went to our local modern art museum with my fiancée. I watched the new White Lotus and the new Paddington. Thursday, breakfast at the café I work at, later studying. Five-hour, homemade chicken soup made by my dearest for dinner. On Friday, my fiancée and I went for a visit to the local government, in order to submit all the necessary paperwork for our upcoming civil partnership (marriage lite). We got a date: July 19th! Friends came over in the evening to watch Irma Vep (1996).

    First post on here! Thank you for having me :)

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      First post on here! Thank you for having me :)

      welcome. Hope your week has started off well.

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    It’s nice to be back (even if I had to make a new account), but I think I still need to take a break from online communication.

    Have had too many toxic encounters lately, so probably need to chill.

    At least I’m not back on fucking reddit anymore. The only reason I made another account there about a year ago was for NSFW stuff (but even those subs still haven’t totally recovered from the API event), yet I still ended up being an idiot and going into /r/popular out of boredom. Lack of third party filtering made it Hell. Muting subs isn’t enough when you’re trying to avoid entire topics.

    Don’t really know why I deleted my old account here. I think I was just going through some shit and deleted all my accounts and related apps.

    The weird thing about federation is that I can see my old posts and comments on my old account here from Fedia (joined there as well because I was curious about mbin), but they’ve disappeared in this instance. To be honest, that’s something I really don’t like. If someone wants to delete their stuff en masse (account, all posts and comments, etc.), it’s still cached on another instance unless they manually delete every post/comment one by one. Not exactly the best for privacy.

    Anyway, whatever. This was an unnecessarily long comment, apologies. Life’s weird. I’m tired. Nothing new, I guess.

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    Not great. I’m really lethargic lately. I don’t think I’ve done one thing for leisure, it’s all just cook/gym/work/sleep. Any second I’m not doing what’s necessary to maintain my body or my paycheck, I’m out cold.

    My therapist had an emergency so we’ve had to delay the session by quite a bit. I have some social engagements coming up and I wanted to talk with her before canceling them. I think I’ll just do it, I don’t think I feel like meeting people.

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    Hope y’all feel better soon!

    Had a lovely anxiety spell take over me the past couple of days, but I’m working on solving the issues that are causing said anxieties, bit by bit. At least the weekend will start, though my internship now seeps into my weekends… Don’t look forward to Saturdays as much as I used to. But Sunday, I’ll be hanging out with a friend. And then I’ll be hanging out with someone I really like. ⌯’▾’⌯ Trying to be optimistic and get work done so that the anxiety lessens.

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    Moderate. I’m angry with the U.S., but music and rhythm games help my mood.

    I had a thought that if enough people coordinated to play a particular music or chant at a certain time, you would hear it for miles, much like people did with clapping for medical workers during the heights of lockdown. I think it’d be a powerful message if enough people joined in.

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    Little high, little low. I’m adjusting to online discussions after not being part of them for quite a while. Had some fun conversations with my partner and I am writing again, which is great. Job hunting is such a drag though. Simply inhuman.

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    It’s the fourth anniversary of my dad’s death. I think this one’s been the easiest so far. There are moments here and there when it really hurts. I feel pretty drained but also weirdly at peace. I drove up to a mountain peak earlier. It was nice to listen to some of his favorite music on the way and feel the cold air on my face when I got there.

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    For a bit I thought my new prescription of lexapro was going to carry me through this year but the week of feeling joyful has leveled out and I am just as grumpy and annoyed as before. Just less sad. I want the joy part, though.

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    Hopefully your family gets well soon, it really blows when you’re the only healthy in a household.

    So far so good, I’m finishing a photo project I started last week and the band that commissioned me is so far happy as hell with the images they’re getting. They’re even going to be giving me a shirt and a copy of their album when it releases.

    I can’t share the images until they get the ones they’re happy with but I’ll definitely share those over on my PixelFed when I’m done with them.

    I’ve also got it down to just Lightroom holding me on Windows, I’m planning to learn some of the open source alternatives once I’m done with this project as not only has Windows over stayed it’s welcome so has the Adobe suite. My plan is to leave Windows (ideally) before the end of March.

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        Thank you!

        I’m particularly proud of that one, I was hoping to give a couple other local peaks the same treatment this last year but the conditions just didn’t align right with my time off.

        There’s hope for this year though!

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      Beautiful photography!!

      How do you like PixelFed?

      I’m in the process of establishing a nonprofit. I know I’ll have to manage the usual social media sites, but I’m looking at starting accounts on alternatives too.

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        Thank you!

        Pixelfed is pretty chill overall IMO, especially with how it’s algorithm is implemented. Chronological and only what you follow unless you look for things, things it’s just chronological.

        I’d recommend keeping your work social media accounts separate from personal accounts, it makes things easier to maintain and easier to keep a public image.

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          Good to know, looking to swap out Instagram for Pixelfed as I am tired of the Negative Nancys and Nicholases I come across on that platform. 😂

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    Warning: Kind of a long whiny post

    One of my roommates just told me she’s buying a house, and my other two roommates are moving in.

    I’m invited too, but I feel like they’re doing so more out of obligation or pity than a desire to continue living with me. I hear them having fun in the living room when I’m holed up in my room, only for them to immediately cool down if I come out. They keep making plans without me, they went skiing last week on a day I was busy. I was the one who had suggested skiing… They just seem to vibe a lot better together than with me, which is fine, but it gets really tiring feeling like the odd one out at home.

    I guess I just can’t help but feel they’d rather bring in a fourth roommate that fits their vibe rather than haul me over to the new place.

    I’m frustrated because I can’t tell if this is all in my head or if they actually find me bothersome. I know I’m at least part of the problem, I’ve never been able to feel fully accepted in any group. Ever since I was a kid I felt like everyone just tolerated me, or accepted my presence, rather than feeling like an integral part of the gang. It’s at the point where even if I were to become accepted in a group, I don’t think I’d even be equipped to realize it. I’d just rationalise away any love and acceptance as fake. Or maybe it’s just a self-fulfilling prophecy, where my incapacity to feel wanted results in no one wanting me.

    OK so this ended up as more than “kind of a whiny post”, sorry for the feeling-dump. I just really needed to get this off my chest and yell it into the void.

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    Hello! I’m sorry for your family and I hope they all recover quickly. I’ve been spending my days working and slowly getting better at managing my own stress levels; therapy was a godsend for me and my therapist is an angel.