That sounds terrible. Glad you made it through but I would think you relive that from time to time.
I have a screwed up neck so when I had a major surgery they had to intubate me (tube down the throat) while I was awake and immobilized (arms strapped down at my sides etc) for surgery. For a long time it would come back to me every time I started to fall asleep. I’m ok now but that PTSD is nothing to mess with. I don’t know if I could do it again.
Thanks, yeah it was bad but over the years it stopped haunting me. Did take a while to get adjusted to reality, since in the coma it was a constant game, making me think I was awake… but, limbless, attacked or dismembered, among other things.
The days without eating weren’t too bad, it was really the removal of all the tubes like you mentioned, I was intubated and had a breathing device inserted that i apparently tried removing twice while coming out.
I kinda tried killing a nurse a few times that I was sure was attempting to kill me lol, thankfully I was so weakened I moved like a tree sloth. The worst was always catheter removal, as they always left it inflated and needed me to be awake when they pulled it out. They did it six times… my genitalia has never forgiven me. It’s even worse when they put it in if you’re alert, it feels like someone is putting a straw in.
That sounds terrible. Glad you made it through but I would think you relive that from time to time.
I have a screwed up neck so when I had a major surgery they had to intubate me (tube down the throat) while I was awake and immobilized (arms strapped down at my sides etc) for surgery. For a long time it would come back to me every time I started to fall asleep. I’m ok now but that PTSD is nothing to mess with. I don’t know if I could do it again.
Thanks, yeah it was bad but over the years it stopped haunting me. Did take a while to get adjusted to reality, since in the coma it was a constant game, making me think I was awake… but, limbless, attacked or dismembered, among other things.
The days without eating weren’t too bad, it was really the removal of all the tubes like you mentioned, I was intubated and had a breathing device inserted that i apparently tried removing twice while coming out.
I kinda tried killing a nurse a few times that I was sure was attempting to kill me lol, thankfully I was so weakened I moved like a tree sloth. The worst was always catheter removal, as they always left it inflated and needed me to be awake when they pulled it out. They did it six times… my genitalia has never forgiven me. It’s even worse when they put it in if you’re alert, it feels like someone is putting a straw in.