My mother would use burn victims she helped as a lesson to avoid being burned alive. It scares me to this day. I was like 10. Its weird seeing kids who have no idea how horribly disfigured they could be purely because they dont know or understand. I started seeing gore at a very early age. Still trying to figure a lot of it out. But my best guess is that i was traumatized (already knew that but whats yet another trauma when you already have hundreds) by seeing said burn victims and my “fascination” with gore back then was more an attempt at understanding said trauma and fears of said disfigurement or something maybe similar?

Ive been also been around a lot of gang violence which i wont be talking about here today because i dont have to if i dont want to and can choose to do so if i want at a later date when/if i am feeling up to it.

also side note. Something that comes to mind is clockwork orange. Perhaps even some of them just go so far. In a similar way they come out the other end. Grossed out by themselves maybe. Who knows. Interesting to think about though.