Since the start of puberty I shut myself in my room, mostly only to come out for school/work and for visiting my father every second weekend because my parents are divorced.
A bit over two years ago I realized I was trans, but I could still live like that, being in my room most of the time. After starting HRT I began to feel lonely and feeling the need for friends, which I didn’t feel before.
Now, at around three months after starting HRT I feel like I die if I continue to not have any social contacts and already harmed myself because of the loneliness. At least everyone who knows me is supportive and I managed to talk to my mother that we do more together like walking, but it didn’t really help with the loneliness.
I have no idea how to make friends. I don’t talk much, partly because I hate my voice, but also because it is difficult for me to find words and things to talk about and I can’t say anything when I am in a group of more than a few people.
I don’t really expect helpful advice here but anything would be appreciated. I mostly just wanted to write that all down.
Idk how your situation is but my siblings helped a lot with it. I felt like I was able to talk way more about my issues with them in comparison to my parents.
Just stuff like asking my brother if I can just hang out in his room when I felt lime shit and just being there, sitting somewhere and just not being that alone. Either staring into my phone or into nothingness
My younger brothers are less than half my age, so I can’t really talk with them and my older sister already moved out. I’m already being more in the living room than in my room