I am 27F. I’ve been wondering if I am on the autistic spectrum for a while now as I feel alien, disconnected and weird during social interactions. I’ve never been taken seriously because people see me as socially gifted. So I took an online test, not as a way to diagnose myself, but to show proof to my actual therapist there might be something to explore. I scored 154 on 200.
Weirdly, she didn’t dismiss me like other professionals did. She just said it’s a great question to ask but as part of her training she did not study this so she can’t evaluate me for it, I’ll have to ask my psychiatrist.
Now I am terrified of getting a diagnosis, the little voice inside of my head tells me “what if I am creating a whole story in my head?”
Are you in the USA? With how weird this administration, I would be wary of seeking out an autism diagnosis. As an adult, getting the dx does nothing for you really, except basically “to confirm” what you already know.
I am not in the USA
Then do as you see you need! I still don’t really advise people to get a Dx as an adult bc most services are for children anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯