• FiveMacs@lemmy.ca
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    9 days ago

    what’s fucked up … is the only reason I’m still here is literally because of my mother and pets. without them, I just don’t see the point.

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      9 days ago

      Have you ever tried shrooms? They have helped many people get out of very long term dark places

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        ya know … the only thing that’s taken my out of this bad headspace was mushrooms. done it twice over 4-5 years when I heard about micro dosing. perhaps I should board the pets and see if it can help for another 6-8 months

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          You should! It’s absolutely mental healthcare. For me it would be best if i did it around every 3 months, but i usually only wind up doing it like every 9 months. We both need to take our vitamin M

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        Yes I did and I was exactly the same person before and after. Only if you already believe in hippie shit will you see hippie shit on shrooms

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          There’s studied scientific proof of it’s benefits to mental health. Just because it didn’t do anything for you doesn’t mean it doesn’t do anything for other people. And if you didn’t feel any effect then the shrooms you had were very weak or you didn’t take enough

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      I, for a long time, tried to kill myself, but couldn’t do it due to my mum and brother getting hurt too much by it. I am in a much better place now.

      I recommend trying to get some help, and I hope you’re out of the US, so you can get some too, because that message rang way too close to home.

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        9 days ago

        not American no. I’ve gone the therapy route, that was expensive af even with coverage and made things worse sadly.

        I like caring for others, there just isn’t others in my life. I could cancel my phone and nobody would know. haven’t had a guest over in easily over 3 years. covid really fucked me up and I’ve never recovered. still isolated.

        I’m not going to do anything to myself, the thoughts are always there. life’s just super lonely and really getting to me.

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          I feel you. If you ever feel lonely, you can dm me here and we can talk about anything you like. Having even someone to talk to online helps a lot. No one deserves to be alone in this world.

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          Getting into an MMO like WoW or FFXIV might help with staving off the loneliness even if for a little while if you have a PC or a laptop.

          Plenty of people on them spending their nights in discord calls chatting away and sometimes plying other games too.

          It’s a great way to make some friends