So this is the description of the “wasteland of reality” thought solution from the game.

“Congrats – you’re sober. It will take a while for your body to remember how to metabolize anything that isn’t sugar from alcohol, so you’re going to be pretty ravenous soon. Eat plenty. You can expect your coordination and balance to improve in a couple of weeks. In two months, you might start sleeping like a normal person. Full recovery will take years, though. It’ll be depressing. And it’ll be boring. Don’t expect any further rewards or handclaps. This is how normal people are all the time.”

I’m not an alcoholic, but I’ve suffered from trauma. I’ve been healing slowly but surely, with some setbacks, but it finally hit me today that this is “it.” There’s no tipping point. There’s no test or exam that you pass. No diploma you get. No award. I wasn’t expecting any of those things, but I hadn’t internalized that I’m just…“normal.” And that I’ll be “normal” for the rest of my life. That ill have to deal with this. As my exams go by, as I get a job, as I find love, as I retire, all of it will be dealing with keeping my psyche intact. I’ll never be done, I’ll just be “normal.”