Why the fuck shouldn’t I kill my self?

Seriously, give me a fucking reason.

Idk can someone help me find a teaching job in the north. They won’t call back because my address isn’t there. I applied to hundreds of Chicago and Montana and other place jobs

I’m certified to teach every core high school subject. Every single one. Math, English, history and science. Test me on any of them if you don’t believe me. I’m best at science and math but I’ll do anything anywhere

here’s a kofi I guess

Edit: I’m really touched and honored by the fact that people have sent me money. I don’t know how to be grateful enough. I feel a little bit more hopeful about the world, I’m reeling from the fact that people wanted to help. Thank you.

  • mr_manager@lemmy.worldEnglish
    10·
    17 days ago

    I know it can be frustrating to receive all this advice from strangers online, who don’t know the specific challenges you’re facing, but I just want to point out that this little community sees you and cares about you.

    You deserve community; you deserve to be seen and loved for who you are. I’m sorry that your birth family was too stupid and cruel to see you for who you really are, but that doesn’t mean that that love and support is denied to you forever. I’m just some random dude on the internet, but I see you and I want good things for you. I guarantee there are people around you that want that connection with you. When you’re fighting just to survive it’s incredibly difficult to find the energy to search out those connections but I promise it’s worth it. Please don’t despair.

    • andros_rex@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      8·
      17 days ago

      I am frustrated. I spend an entire childhood being sexually abused and gaslighted about it. I’m sick of being told that what I see isn’t real. I’m sick of being told to get over things that were never even acknowledged. I’m sick of being told things will get better when they never have. I’m exhausted. I want a mattress to sleep on. I want people to care about me.

      • mr_manager@lemmy.worldEnglish
        5·
        17 days ago

        I’m not going to tell you any of that. All I’ll say to you is that I’m incredibly sorry for the trauma you’ve endured; you didn’t deserve to be treated like that, it’s not your fault, and you deserve to be loved and cared for. My heart breaks for you, and I hope so much that you can find the love and support you need. I believe that you can and you will. This world is a hard, cold place sometimes, but there is light and love in it, and I wish so much for you to find your share of it. I guarantee you that there are people in your community who will want to connect with you, if you can find the strength to keep reaching out.