So. I was just wondering. I am not sure if I am an autist. But if i try to pretend I am, this thought feels kind of comfortable. I think thats because it feels like I can stop pretending to be someone else in so many areas since i always act upon learned and manifested observations about ‘correct’ human behaviour i made throughout my life. What do you guys think about that?

  • ski11erboi@lemmy.world
    6·
    13 hours ago

    I had a similar experience. The more I learned about autism the more excited I became about finally having an answer to all the things that didn’t make sense the last 30+ years. After obsessing over articles and videos about how other people on the spectrum dealt with things like burnout and rage, I started to feel peace about who I was for the first time in my life. I went back and forth questioning whether or not I should get a formal diagnosis and ultimately made the decision not to for this one simple reason: It didn’t matter. If the “solutions” that worked for autistic people worked for me, then everything else was just semantics.

    If believing I was on the spectrum improved my quality of life, it didn’t matter whether it was true or not.

  • darksiderbun@lemmy.caEnglish
    3·
    14 hours ago

    Read “Unmasking Autism”, it is what confirmed it for me! I am 100% certain, so far beyond any shadow of a doubt. Bonus points also if you have a local library and can check it out from there! Yay libraries!!

  • misk@piefed.socialEnglish
    12·
    1 day ago

    Read as much as you can on autism, preferably written from autistic and neurotypical perspectives. There are things about autism that seem to be common knowledge among autistic people that NTs and science seem to be completely oblivious about. There are also things that autistic people attribute to autism but are result of usual comorbidities.

    When thinking about what is normal it is common to be thrown off by what your family is like. Autism is highly heritable and it’s very likely that if you’re autistic then at least one of your parents autistic is too even if they don’t know it.

    If you’re after something objectively verifiable on your own then look into joint hypermobility - if you can dislocate some of your joints at will then it’s surprisingly likely that you’re some form of neurodivergent. My mind was blown by some of the recent studies in that area. I wasn’t that angry about not being diagnosed earlier when it comes to how my mind works because I found ways to cope. I was angry because it turns out that there’s a whole slew of physical conditions that seem to be specific to autism that doctors aren’t aware of usually and will never consider because of their own misconceptions about autism.

    Once you understand how autism works you’ll know. By the time I got formally diagnosed I didn’t have any doubt about it myself even though I would laugh at the idea couple of months before.

  • uzziah0@lemmy.world
    161·
    1 day ago

    https://embrace-autism.com/autism-tests/

    Start here and see where this takes you. This is what I did. I’m older and don’t see a reason for a full eval. I’ve also been reading and searching to see if some things I do are autistic. If you aren’t sure, start here, or find some other online tests.

    • fedditter@feddit.orgOP
      2·
      23 hours ago

      I did the autism spectrum and Raads-r test. Autism spectrum (AQ) was 31 score, raads-r test 151. now what?

    • Thoven@lemdro.idEnglish
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      14 hours ago

      Especially Raads-R, the statistical accuracy is insane. Meaning it has an unusually low rate of false positives, so a high score is a fairly reliable indicator. Especially considering it’s a self report.

      Edit: newer studies have found that while RAADS-R can be a useful tool to indicate need for further diagnosis, it is not as reliable as the original study indicated. Most notably, the test does an excellent job of screening for neurodivergence but fails to consider which traits are necessarily autistic and which traits are related to other conditions, such as ADHD.

  • Broadfern@lemmy.worldEnglish
    10·
    1 day ago

    I admit I skimmed your account and maybe “pretend” isn’t quite the right word for what you’re saying?

    Putting yourself in the mindset of “maybe I am” and unmasking, and that feels authentic, seems to be my understanding of what you’ve written in context.

    But this is above Lemmy’s paygrade. Unfortunately the only way to be 100% sure is to get a diagnosis, which can be very difficult financially/logistically.

    Even if you are or aren’t autistic, if you do find that coping behaviors, interests etc. that are often associated with the autistic community work for you and make you feel like yourself then I personally would say that’s okay.

    The human brain is a weird thing and neurotypes are all over the place. Being ND isn’t just autism so you may find kinship with other communities too. Keep an open mind.