of course, i need help, not for someone who can say definitely, because only i can.
ok, so i’m born female, but i don’t identify as such. honestly, i think i align myself somewhere on the “man” part of the spectrum, but i feel very “soft” and “tender”, i guess that means i don’t feel a sense of hypermasculinity or a strong sense of gender.
part of me seems to be male aligned and the other part just feels soft like i say, no specific gender. rather, i’d say a gender but not one that counts as male or female. since i can’t express my gender, i say i’m just me, but i do get curious what gender i would count as. i’m just me in the end, but still.
Trans gal here! For a time I identified similarly to your last paragraph. I wasn’t sure what I was was, but I didn’t feel particularly male or female. I told people I was nonbinary because I wasn’t sure where I was in that mix for a more specific label.
Eventually I realized that I aligned as more of a tomboy in fashion, but my identity felt firmly female despite my shifts in expression. That was my journey, wishing you luck on finding yourself!