I hate my stupid mental issues so much, I think people hate me and if my S/O’s tone slightly changes, I think he hates me or I did something wrong and then I feel manipulative. I get angry so quickly, IDK what the hell is wrong with me but I hate it. I know I’m just a teen (18) but still. I wish I was normal.
I wish if my S/O didn’t respond in a certain way or a dryer way that he hated me, I don’t act this way with anyone else, I just think if he stops showing affection (because he always does) that he hates me. I’m so damn manipulative, ugh.
Please be nice and listen. This is a rant, I don’t really need advice or to be criticized. I already know I’m messed up mentally.
I know you said you don’t want advice. I’m sorry for what you’re going through. The mental health things of course won’t solve themselves. Don’t let yourself suffer, take some space and self care immediately as these feelings start to get big, by now you know your early warning signs. Thats not meant to be advice, it came out that way, sorry about that. It’s a strategy I use to help people with moods that fluctuate rapidly. I hope you have warm calm feelings going forward. These things aren’t your fault.