Usually I keep to myself on these things but curiosity is getting me this time around, probably gonna regret posting this considering how toxic the internet and people in general are, oh well, just wanna see if I’m the only one dealing with this or not, literally not asking for anything else.

Basically I’m at a very bad place in my life, built my first small PC ever recently after saving up for a few long years, and of course as I’m a complete noobie and have pretty unsteady hands I bumbled my way through it, made some scratches on the case here and there that I’m very upset about considering how much I paid for this thing, it could’ve been worse and it’s thankfully nothing crazy, the noticeable scratches are all around the screws and the like usually hidden by the panels or behind the main components, but I still get genuinely upset looking at the small scratches when I mess around with the case and realising that was completely avoidable if I just had been more careful or patient or saved up for better easier to manage tools, even looking at other noobie builds it seems I’m the only one that bumbled badly enough to leave noticeable scars around the screws and other spots, and it’s a really cute looking PC as well so I wanna enjoy looking at the little thing, it’s gonna be right next to me on my desk afterall, and if I ever inevitably need to upgrade something or tweak something or even just clean it then I’m inevitably going to make small or major mistakes and scratches will build up as a consequence of it, not even mentioning my expensive and fragile monitor that if I so much as look at funny it’ll scratch up, though if any comments on the internet are to go by I’m “overreacting” and “need a therapist” so, not a normal reaction I guess, haven’t found or heard much of anyone out there being super bothered by stuff like this even on stupidly expensive parts.

Also bricked my motherboard BIOS somehow in the process and can’t figure out how to save it, obviously very upsetting just when I thought I had finished everything up, might be completely dead and if so then that’s that, done completely goofed, gonna start everything all over again and wait for god knows how long to inevitably repeat the process and probably make the same mistakes again as by the time I can afford any of these components again I’d have forgotten everything and be in an even worse physical/mental state to boot to manage my unsteady hands. So I gave up and am in the process of searching for a local technician/repair shop in my region to help (probably should’ve just started with that tbh, I’m at fault for that), which considering I live in a shitty part of the world is not easy, and for all I know they might make everything worse and handle it 100x more roughly then I ever would, no idea but not much else I can do, I’m so tired and am not a professional on anything obviously haha, am clocking out basically.

I dunno just rambling I guess, not the end of the world or anything - especially if my motherboard is saved and everything else functions in the end (fingers crossed…), I’m even surprised i didn’t light the whole thing on fire by some freak mistake considering how badly things usually go in my life haha, but idk my minds so stressed out by so many things in my life that just keep pilling up and getting worse and this just had to happen to add to my already high amounts of, well, everything, when I wanted it to be a brief moment of relief and achievement, but nah I guess, can’t ever catch a break.

Anyone can relate or am I just extra weird?