transcription: what if we escaped the psyche ward together…

      • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        4·
        8 hours ago

        oh… erotador rlli told u somethn…

        listn. shes nt the problm. im jus rlli bad at connimicatin how bad im feelin.

        Ive been lik dis since childhood.

        body stuff. beware ~ (not cool body stuff)
        • I told mother bout tummy aches when that part of my stomache was about to explode (duno ingish word, got operated out thad same day m doctor said “holi phuck how did dis lil ~ man~ nt tell u earlier”)
        • I didn tell mothr bout rlli bad bum pain when shiddin until i startd comin crying from toilet from pain n she askd me whad it was (i wana be like her some day <3 shes vrri nice and reasonable and caring person to evrione)
        • i didn mention the trans until i startd havin suicidal thoughts (which took years)

        i generalli hold problms for myself, so they remain mine and dont pleague others.

        and still in therapi i usualli downplay evrithin… last time i litrlli said “not mch is holdin me alive rn” bt i obv put tons of fluff to distract from heavi bad words >v<

        i alsuu toldy mothr (becausey othr kinda therapist recognizd thad im doin vrri badli m told me “talk to mother and therapy TODAY! this is serious”.

        i told both, but both didn rlli see the big deal. thn latr i told mother again (maybe there was missumdratandin) n then she went “oh… OOOOOH oh yea no thads bad. i rlli hope therapist cn somehow help!”

        n now im waiting…for her to say “I got the letter”… because she didn’t give one for weeks so I had to make my own… and now im waitin for reply… so that she and my kinda therapist can call and she cn say thad im actulli doin vrrri bad and am vrri sad rn…

        mayb erotador is right. mayb i rlli am nt the problm. bt i think im jus undersellin things again… so eh -

        • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zoneMEnglish
          1·
          56 minutes ago

          smorty!!! if your therapist was properly serving you, you wouldn’t be trauma dumping to us as often as you do. she’d have affirmed your gender ages ago and wouldn’t have fucked around for so long. you keep blaming yourself like someone in an abusive relationship!

          I’ve had these problems with your therapist for months, long before i ever talked with adora about them, so don’t think I’m angry because of her. i get really upset when therapists “wait and see” or question a person’s identity when they’re so clearly trans

      • Zorsith@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        3·
        7 hours ago

        Y’all have therapists? (Seriously, i had to wait 2.5 months for a psychologist appointment that I’m… a little conflicted on and upset with after having gone through the appointment.)