The older I get the more clear basically every facet of our society is to exploit us and fill us with propaganda.
The first thing that comes to mind when I wake up is how much I just hate being surround by this species that seems to want nothing more than to destroy itself.
Everything is a fucking joke and I’m fucking tired of everyone but I have a daughter.
I’m absolutely miserable and disgusted by basically everyone but I don’t have the luxury of being able to quit. I just long for death.
Understandable and feels for all of that. Only reason I’m still alive is not because I fear death but I’m afraid of surviving it and living a even worse life by force. The Amerikkkan medical system is extremely hard on people who attempt it and don’t really care if you lost a arm or something, they will still treat you just as shit and probably worse. So yeah, it’s not about being afraid I might hurt others because I’m gone. I’m afraid I might hurt others because I survived it and they have to take more care of me because of it.
This. Its sorta hard to die in some ways in the modern world without taking a big risk of severely disabled survival.