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Cake day: October 25th, 2023

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  • When I was 14, we had a 56k modem, so internet porn was no time to fun or convenient. I discovered text-based erotica and asstr.org

    While reading many stories, I eventually stumbled into some that featured incest and children. These were the hottest ones, the most taboo. And I couldn’t believe how many there were.

    This has always put me at ease, knowing that there was so much content made me sure that there are many many many people out there who are also turned on by these fantasies. (I think minor attraction is just normal sexual attraction. If someone is cute or sexy, their age won’t matter. Look at how many people counted down until the Olsen Twins’ 18th birthday. It was just because they wanted to openly ogle them)

    Of course, back then, I thought it’s just fantasies. But once I went to a Japanese video store in Kagoshima and saw legally sold child porn–an entire floor dedicated to it! I was curious and wanted to stay and look through. It just reinforced my theory that this is popular and common.

    as I got older and worked with children, I came to see that it’s easy to be attracted to some of them. They are often attracted to me, maybe because I’m a teacher.

    Finally, I dove in and started actively seeking child porn. Mostly out of curiosity. I was shocked by how sexy a lot of it was. I was also ashamed by how badly made and abusive a lot of it seemed. (I wish it was legal, then I think we’d see some kind of improvement in quality and treatment of models, and not so much exploitation by horny family members)

    Now I’m learning to embrace and accept that I can be attracted to young people. My wife knows about it and even shares some of my feelings.