Ms. ArmoredThirteen

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Cake day: December 8th, 2024

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  • I feel deeply embarrassed about being from the US. It’s like hanging out with a group of friends out of necessity, later realizing they were all assholes, and trying to come to terms with the fact you spent so many years with them. I live outside the US now and I’m even more embarrassed to be from there. Every time there’s some culture shock my takeaway is either “wow how did I normalize this broken aspect of the US” or “I wish I was from somewhere that didn’t do those things to that person’s country”.

    I also feel embarrassed and guilty over getting out of the US. I worked in tech and now I’m living off tech savings to start a life outside the US. I left my friends behind many of them are struggling financially, I left my community behind many of which are actively homeless, I chose to leave. Sure I’m leaving in part because my trans ass is on the chopping block but I see a lot of trans people fight harder instead of flee. I fought for so many years though and I couldn’t keep doing it so I left. The US did this to my community, made me confront choices I never wanted to make, I’m disgusted by having paid taxes to the war machine, and I justify working in tech as a way out of there but really I feel guilty over choosing to buy into that side of the US too so I could secure personal safety.


















  • The drivers in Seattle can be unhinged. There was one time I was going straight through an intersection, a guy jumped a median into incoming traffic to get past the car stopped in front of them so they could turn left through a red light; a couple feet difference and I would have been a road smear. Another time I had a truck stopped at a light yell at me for passing them in the bike lane and try to door me. Pretty much if I was ony bike I assumed I was going to get hit by a car. Still spent hours exploring the city on my bike though